Showing posts with label Let's talk about Love. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Let's talk about Love. Show all posts

Our 1st year anniversary


L.O.V.E.

Its 2012 and i have my first kiss!!!

Hello fellow bloggers, how have you been? Its 2012 now, time fly so fast. I was staying at my home throughout the long weekend and never go out but something something really good happened :)

Ok, i'm always fantasize and like this person "GB". But i know that GB will never be mine because GB is too good for me. The outlook, the body, the brain, the personalities, u named it, GB got it~ I only hope to be on the friend list of GB, nothing too much to be expected. Just on Sunday, GB whatsapp me "I'm gonna see my friend near your area, wanna meet up?"

Of course i say yes, GB came to my house for the first time, we chat a little bit before going off. And before leaving, GB asked me what is my dream in 2012. Then i say "A hug from you"... oh lord, you guys must be yelling at me and say that i'm a cheap bitch~ lol, I AM.

But i glad i say it, GB leaned forward and hug me and kiss me on my lips!!! Oh shit, i swear to you i almost scream~ but i understand this is just a "friend" kiss, nothing gonna happen. I feel weird when i say "thank you" after the kiss~ lol, i must have gone crazy!!! But at least my dream come true~ hah

Its the timing


A lot of things really depends on timing. When A came few months ago, A think that he's the prince but not until B appears.

Things change, B quickly win the points that A has been lacking and unwilling to give. When A figure something is not right, A quickly change something and hope miracle will happen. But the thing is, A is still too self-center.

Its all about timing, A or B ? Gosh...

让爱飞翔

爱可以很简单
爱可以很复杂

我只想要段简简单单的爱
难道是件奢侈的要求吗?

如果不能如我所愿
我宁愿让爱飞翔

安仔為 Sammi抹淚 - 盡在不言中



Tie Me Up

Sorry
I'm not yours
Don't u dare to tell me wat to do

Even tie-ing me up is useless
Unless in bed

lol

一步一步愛 - Sammi 郑秀文

Feat 陳奐仁



合:左腳右腳 一步一步求告   
左腳右腳 一步一步求告   
多困擾 一步一步就好   
左腳右腳 一切都會揭曉    
一步一步來 喔

男:愛要我裝備自己 半分不移自我犧牲   
愛讓我心身火起 欲仙欲死奮不顧身   
愛是幸福的消耗 累得最值得   
若愛你會累死 寧可放棄健康不看醫生

女:愛一個人根本就不需懷疑不需憑據   
愛你的下一步是勇敢繼續愛下去   
愛一步看一步 既然一切無法算清楚   
何不交托 喔

*合:愛是什麼東西誰能明白    
但我不放棄 一步一步來 喔    
愛讓走的每一步都精彩    
愛需要勇氣 一步一步來 喔*

男:一步一步從末期單思打入愛的天堂     
一步一步在愛的包容之中醫治心房   
愛是深夜裡沒路牌的窄路   
但如果你是黑暗 我寧可吹滅蠟燭而迷路

女:愛的旨意不成立若不出於順服的路   
信心的救贖 愛要我成就的每一步   
信一步順一步 架上的意念高於全部   
俯伏交托 喔

REPEAT*

男:愛傾倒了整個世界   
證實了生命的一切

女:愛讓我像嬰孩渴慕靈奶

合:在你的懷抱相信祈禱

合:愛是什麼東西誰能明白   
但我不放棄 一步一步來 喔   
哥林多前書十三章七節   
應允我相信 一步一步愛 喔
(有了你的愛)

合:愛是什麼東西誰能明白(世界變得精彩)   
但我不放棄 一步一步來 喔
(為你的愛)   
哥林多前書十三章七節(我一步一步來)   
應允我相信 一步一步愛 喔
(一步一步愛)

Can Love be that Simple ?

Love
Relationship
Can it be that simple?

Straight, Homo, Bi
Love can be complicated
Love can be ridiculous
Love can be a disaster

Know a couple
They do things which make them happy
Never consider the consequences
They believe love is simple

But for me
At this moment
No

Love can be very complicated
Love can be that simple?
I doubt

I Love You This Much

Saw this from Diana's blog
I love you this much
Isn't it cool?

Your lover might say
how much how much he 0r she loves you
but how much?
Can it be measure?
I doubt....

Love someone with your heart
That's what count :)

不要惊动爱情 - Don't Startle the Love

Previously one of my ex sang me this song
and Muzi also posted about this song
seriously, this song has been haunted me days and nights

Sammi, i love u
I hope ur love will come soon
and i hope my love will come soon too
or i dun need love anymore?

We will never understand love
When u love someone
All u want to do is to be with him/her
no matter what kind of position u r in~
No matter how difficult it is


很想轻抚你 所以避开你
宁愿用距离 去令你好奇
回避过眼神 先偷偷喘气
吩咐手臂 放在原地

传闻浪漫太快 爱恋都走得快
才会 迟迟未步向你 说一世爱护你

情太过汹涌像深海 而我却会忍耐
但求来日你醒过来 这份情像翅膀打开
还没有相拥别意外 神教会我等待
待情流像细水 才去承诺你
拿一生兑换爱

很心急拥抱 所以在祷告
求甜蜜以前 带着你慢步
游历过旅途 等一天终老
生老病死 一起细数

原来慢慢靠近 更珍惜这一吻
而我 停留是为了你 要给予你护荫

情太过汹涌像深海 而我却会忍耐
但求来日你醒过来 这份情像翅膀打开
还没有相拥别意外 神教会我等待
待情流像细水 才去承诺你
拿一生兑换爱

能为爱恋学习按捺 情信寄进心内
但求能学会倚靠神 爱被驯服过更精采
连地老天荒亦不更改 时间永远等待
等你情愿那天 才去承诺你
无止境那份爱

我用沉默叫醒爱情
你用期待做你反应
继续行近直至开始爱

The fat kid

Ok ok, i knw i knw~ i'm going to talk something bad about my current company again~ but... i spend almost the whole day in the office, what can i most probably talk about right?

So there is this temp staff, a fat kid who sit near to Ms Polite. From his reaction and behaviour, i can see that he likes Ms Polite. Of coz lo, Leu is in da office, Ms Polite has put her heart all on me~ :P So the fat kid can only merry-go-around her like a dog~ Cleverly, the fat kid has notice how Ms Polite treats me. Always buy me fruits after lunch, make coffee for me and etc... So i've become the sort of "rival" for the kid.

Talk about this fat kid, really beh tahan with him. Once he follow me to the toilet and purposely stand beside me to pee... Come on la~ no need to compare k~ i win - from head to toe :)

And i dont think Ms Polite like him either, he's even shorter than her... phew, luckily my mum give me a 176~ the real world is so scary... no matter guys or girls, everybody will definitely look at one person's appearance first ~

I feel like putting his pic here and ask u guys to judge about his appearance. But in a second thought, this is not a good thing for him and for my karma~ haha~

[jst another rubbish entrance]

My HB

HB does not stand for Hugo Boss, HB is initial of my ex from Switzerland. We're together for 1 .5 year when i was 23yo. HB is intelligent, smart & very caring. As a politician, HB has always been busy with work and doesn't have time to get into a serious relationship.

Cupid arranged us to meet from a website, after a few dating, an interracial love begins :) Well, of course i believe our relationship will lasts more than 1.5 if HB work contract didn't expired. Before HB left, I was asked to go along to Switz, i was such a jerk, i rejected because i was scared. Then our relationship ended.

Within these 5 years, we still keep in touch with email and i know HB has started a new relationship with an Indonesian student in Switz. Later on, HB & the new mate moved to BKK, but we still do not meet up. I thought i will never see HB again until a recent email stating that a visit will be make to KL. But when i met HB last Sunday, a bad news was told.

Cancer !!!

Before HB go back to Switz again, he wanted to see me again~ We met, HB told me the mate has went to Switz first while he came here to meet me. My heart tear with pain when i found out about the cancer. We did not have sex, but i accompany HB every night, we talked, I cried, I never know i was so weak. I jst can't stop thinking this is gonna be the real last time that we gonna see each other.

H: Maybe 20 years later, you will meet someone, and that might be me who reborn
L: ...
H: That will be the same situation as now. 20 years later u will have to take care of me
L: ...
H: Don't cry...

Its not a conversation after all, coz i cannot tahan and my fucking tears drop. And today HB has took the flight back to BKK 1st due to the flight canceling to europe. GOD, please make sure he will be alright~

Bid Farewell

How would you feel when someone fly all the way to Malaysia just to bid farewell to you? You might not able to see tat person again after this final visit. This might be the last flight of a life.

I look at the face which i once kissed every morning. So pale and ill. So lifeless.


I cried

Love Love Love

Read this from a blog, here the story goes...

**************************************
Once a lady, when having a conversation with her lover, asked:

Lady: Why do you like me? Why do you love me?
Man: I can’t tell the reason but I really like you...

Lady: You can’t even tell me the reason. How can you say you like me? How can you say you love me?
Man: I really don’t know the reason, but I can prove that I love U.

Lady: Proof? No! I want you to tell me the reason. friend’s boyfriend can tell her why he loves her but not you!
Man: Ok..ok!!! Erm... because you are beautiful, because your voice is sweet,because you are caring,because you are loving,because you are thoughtful,because of your smile,because of your every movements.

The lady felt very satisfied with the man’s answer. Unfortunately, a few days later, the Lady met with an accident and went in comma.The Guy then placed a letter by her side,

Here is the content:

Darling,

Because of your sweet voice that I love you...Now can you talk? No! Therefore I cannot love you.
Because of your care and concern that I like you..Now that you cannot show them, therefore I cannot love you.
Because of your smile,because of your every movements that I love you..
Now can you smile? Now can you move?No, therefore I cannot love you...
If love needs a reason, like now, there is no reason for me to love you anymore.
Does love need a reason?

NO!

Therefore, I still LOVE YOU...

***AND, I like this...

~True love never dies for it is lust that fades away. Love bonds for a lifetime but lust just pushes away
~Immature love says: ’I love you because I need you.’ Mature love says ’I need you because I love you.’
~Fate Determines Who Comes Into Our Lives, But Heart Determines Who Stays...’

Letter to DS

Dear DS,

I don't know whether you're still reading my blog or not, i just feel like writing this for you. But if you missed this, then sorry la~ i will not write it physically for you.

The first day when we met, i feel my life becoming different. You're so caring and you feed me love spoon by spoon till i can't take it anymore. I will always remember the first date we went out, you actually brought me to a "shrimp-fishing-pond" which has been changed to a leisure place long time ago... At that time, i was about to make jokes of your sohai-ness but then when i look at your innocent expression, i just kept quiet. We started to date each others for dinner, and i was willing to skip my gym every time till Winnie call me an asshole for flying her airplanes!

2nd Nov 2009, the date i may remember now, but i hope its not forever. Coz its the date i become your bf, but you told me i'm just your bf, not lover. I thought this is how people like you who studied in US will say this, but no... i didn't interpret the meaning beneath it. I never really figure out that one may have many bf but only 1 lover

The first movie we watched in cinema is "2012", you told me you're expecting some love film but too bad, maybe our relationship might end up just like the disaster in the film. Prediction? Perhaps... Loving you is the period that i enjoy the most, but "thank you" is what i get.

You might not realized sometime you grumble a lot like an old nanny, but i enjoyed it. You enjoy farting in front of me, and we will laugh and you will get a punch from me. You like things to be in order and clean but you never wanted to wash your glasses and mugs. You likes your gold fish but you always try to find a way to get rid of my huang rong.

I thought you will be my last, but this is not gonna happen. Remember once when you get angry and i wait for you in front of your house 4 hours long? I never realized that i'm really doing this. It sounds silly but i did it. I never know that by asking where are you will make me look like a control freak. But u didn't realized you are also doing this too~

I make a big move when we were together, will i regret? I really don't know. I always hope that i have never make that move, but since i did, i will have to bear with it. Struggling to forgot about our love, you sure do a better job than me. My feeling was so tie up until recently. I know whatever it is, this has end and that's it.

Please let me be a bit selfish and live on my own life...

Love Dies
-n-

I let evils swallow me alive

I can't stand it no more... the vampire who once brought me to the eternal world smash my dream and killed me by squeezing off the last blood from my heart. And now, i walk into the dark, i walk into the hell full of evil spirits. I wear no shield, I bring no weapon, I let the evils swallow me alive...

They clawed my flesh, suck on my roots, laughing and enjoying the every inches of me. I teared. I have sank into a poverty full of filthy mud. More evils come but nobody see the tears flowing down from my cheek. I was once a fighter, I was once a general, I never cried till i become part of the vampire. And now, i am no one but a piece of shit~

I can't differentiate between my tears and the rain, nobody can, nobody will. I drag my vampire-less body out and try to run, run away from everyone, run away from despise stare. Till i see sunrise, i let the ray of light burn my flesh and hope that i will become ashes. Cleanse my filthy body and hurtful heart...

Hurt, i know i will see no vampire till the dawn again.

From the book of (Vampire 1123)

Bad Romance - Lady Gaga

Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh! Oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh! Oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance

Rah rah ah-ah-ah! Ro mah ro-mah-mah
Gaga Ooh-la-la! Want your bad romance
Rah rah ah-ah-ah! Ro mah ro-mah-mah
Gaga Ooh-la-la! Want your bad romance

I want your ugly
I want your disease
I want your everything
As long as it’s free
I want your love
Love-love-love
I want your love

I want your drama
The touch of your hand
I want you leathe-studded kiss in the sand
I want your love
Love-love-love
I want your love
Love-love-love
I want your love

You know that I want you
And you know that I need you
I want it bad
Your bad romance

I want your loving
And I want your revenge
You and me could write a bad romance
(Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!)
I want your loving
All your love is revenge
You and me could write a bad romance

Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh! Oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh! Oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance

Rah rah ah-ah-ah! Ro mah ro-mah-mah
Gaga Ooh-la-la! Want your bad romance

I want your horror
I want your design
‘Cause you’re a criminal
As long as your mine
I want your love
Love-love-love
I want your love, uhh

I want your psycho
Your vertigo stick
Want you in my room
When your baby is sick
I want your love
Love-love-love
I want your love
Love-love-love
I want your love

You know that I want you
And you know that I need you
(‘Cause I’m a freak bitch, baby!)
I want it bad
Your bad romance

I want your loving
And I want your revenge
You and me could write a bad romance
(Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!)
I want your loving
All your love is revenge
You and me could write a bad romance

Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh! Oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh! Oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance

Rah rah ah-ah-ah! Ro mah ro-mah-mah
Gaga Ooh-la-la! Want your bad romance
Work-work fashion baby
Work it move that bitch crazy
Work-work fashion baby
Work it move that bitch crazy
Work-work fashion baby
Work it move that bitch crazy
Work-work fashion baby
Work it I’m a freak bitch baby

I want your love
And I want your revenge
I want your love
I don’t wanna be friends

J'veux ton amour
Et je veux ton revenge
J'veux ton amour
I don't wanna be friends
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh! (I don't wanna be friends)

Oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh! Caught in a bad romance
(I don't wanna be friends)
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh! Oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh!
(Want your bad romance)
Caught in a bad romance (Want your bad romance)

I want your loving
I want your revenge
You and me could write a bad romance
(Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!)
I want your loving
All your love is revenge
You and me could write a bad romance

Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh! (Want your bad romance)
Oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh! Caught in a bad romance
(Want your bad romance)
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh! (Want your bad romance)
Oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh! Caught in a bad romance

Rah rah ah-ah-ah! Ro mah ro-mah-mah
Gaga Ooh-la-la! Want your bad romance

Smelly Cat

All you wanna say is "thank you". I think that's it. Between us is only "thank you". Nothing else but only "thank you". Emotion boiled up in my heart these days, feeling helpless and dissapointed. But what can i do? Nothing ever changed in my heart, you're still the same "you" inside me. Maybe it really does need time, but all these waiting might ends up nothing or just a simple "thank you". No matter how hard i try, no matter how much i change, no matter how much i tolerate, no matter how much i try to fit in, "thank you" will only be it...

Smelly cat ~ smelly cat ~ what are they feeding you ?!?
Smelly smelly smelly smelly smelly cat ~ its not your fault ~~~

Yea, maybe i'm not good enough, maybe i'm not independent enough, maybe i'm not well build enough, maybe i'm not smiling enough, maybe i'm not ... jst maybe i'm not the one to fit in that position...

Whisper is going and i dancing in lonely~
Whisper is singing and i going like crazy~

Remember when u say i never appreciate what you did? I did appreciate! Who would know i am all so excited when you are happy? Who would tell you when you feel sick that my heart ripped and pain? Who gonna know when you feel uncomfortable i pray every morning and night? And yes, "thank you" is all i have~

During x'mas time, i sat on santa's lap
Asking him to bring all the happiness to you
He said all i need is to write you a song...
So i goes~ sweetie pie sweetie pie~what am i feeding you?
I will ask God to feed you with Love, Bless, Luck~

If you ever measure how much tears you teared, would you use a jug or a mug? Many nights without kisses are replace by litres and litres of tears... All these tears have squeeze out my energy, your passion. These hurtful and disgrace tears are like ink, spilted between us, even Mr Muscle can't breach it off...

Starry starry night, paint your pallet blue and grey~
Won't you feel so hesistate... till i'm gone with all my heart~

Love me tender, hold me tight...
and yes, you sucked out all my blood...
and i will never regret

From the book of [vampire1123]

Winter Solstice 2009

This year's winter solstice i got to spend it with DS :) We went makan at "Fat Woman Chicken" which is totally sucks~ The rice is just white rice but not chicken rice; the blended garlic is disgusting; the fried pork is totally consider of FAT only... Really really a horrible place to eat... we swear that we will not go back to there anymore...

Silly us, we went around pudu area trying to find "tong yuan" to eat but failed. We forgot that most of the chinese shop/stall close because of Winter Solstice festival... Well, DS call one of the colleagues/friends and they have tong yuan for us :) Wow~ I feel kinda excited coz i will met the friends!!! But before we go, we headed back home first... and the funny thing is... we search high and low for tong yuan but couldn't get one; but there's one stall just in front of DS hse which sell tong yuan...

Of coz we bought it and makan :) After one hour, we headed to the friend's and they welcome me with nice tong yuan :) yummy~ although i'm not really a fans of tong yuan, but this year really seems special for me... After all these year i've live in KL, i never have the chance to eat tong yuan which my mum make... and now... i jst feel so lucky and happy~

Hope this will never end~ :)

If only I could Love You More -[1123]-

If only i could love u more
But sometimes its so hard to
Raising your voice
Throwing those words
Showing your expression
This is not the 1st time
And I believe it will not be the last time
I really feel hurt
I start to get scared
Should I continue to love you?

-[1123]-
Within the Heart of a Vampire