HB does not stand for Hugo Boss, HB is initial of my ex from Switzerland. We're together for 1 .5 year when i was 23yo. HB is intelligent, smart & very caring. As a politician, HB has always been busy with work and doesn't have time to get into a serious relationship.

Cupid arranged us to meet from a website, after a few dating, an interracial love begins :) Well, of course i believe our relationship will lasts more than 1.5 if HB work contract didn't expired. Before HB left, I was asked to go along to Switz, i was such a jerk, i rejected because i was scared. Then our relationship ended.

Within these 5 years, we still keep in touch with email and i know HB has started a new relationship with an Indonesian student in Switz. Later on, HB & the new mate moved to BKK, but we still do not meet up. I thought i will never see HB again until a recent email stating that a visit will be make to KL. But when i met HB last Sunday, a bad news was told.

Cancer !!!

Before HB go back to Switz again, he wanted to see me again~ We met, HB told me the mate has went to Switz first while he came here to meet me. My heart tear with pain when i found out about the cancer. We did not have sex, but i accompany HB every night, we talked, I cried, I never know i was so weak. I jst can't stop thinking this is gonna be the real last time that we gonna see each other.

H: Maybe 20 years later, you will meet someone, and that might be me who reborn
L: ...
H: That will be the same situation as now. 20 years later u will have to take care of me
L: ...
H: Don't cry...

Its not a conversation after all, coz i cannot tahan and my fucking tears drop. And today HB has took the flight back to BKK 1st due to the flight canceling to europe. GOD, please make sure he will be alright~

17 who am I - questions:


April 21, 2010 at 3:20 PM

oh, this is a sad news.. hope he will recover.. :)


April 21, 2010 at 3:50 PM

Hope his lover will be with him when he needs him the most.

  the happy go lucky one

April 21, 2010 at 4:09 PM

this is really sad, hope everyone will b able to cope with it.

  C'est la vie

April 21, 2010 at 5:58 PM

It's such a bad news. Let's hope that good things will happen.


You know where to find me if you need someone to talk to. I haven't retrieved my number after the rob anyway. Email me.


April 21, 2010 at 6:18 PM

Hope he's alright. Pray hard.


April 21, 2010 at 7:17 PM

sorry to hear that, but may god bless your friend... be tough leu


April 21, 2010 at 7:48 PM

he ll be alright....

  Queen B

April 21, 2010 at 7:54 PM

my condolences to ur HB. Be tough my dear~


April 21, 2010 at 8:06 PM

i'm sorry to hear that...


April 21, 2010 at 10:14 PM

god bless HB...


April 21, 2010 at 10:42 PM

It is not the end yet. Keep contact with him and hopefully things will be fine :)


April 21, 2010 at 11:13 PM

cherish who u love and be brave to flow with ur love..


April 22, 2010 at 12:36 AM

awww.....take care ya!


April 22, 2010 at 8:55 AM

am so SAD.... thank you for sharing this story with us... i pray HB will win his battle with cancer...


April 22, 2010 at 11:52 AM

Thank you everyone, I'm fine... manage to calm down myself and hopefully HB will be able to get better~


April 23, 2010 at 12:20 AM

pity u!

  Phunk Factor

April 24, 2010 at 6:46 PM

This is a sad update, buddy!! A very sad update!!