The cousin is coming over...

My house is near to a university and so happens that one of my cousin bro is going to study at here. We are not close at all because of the age gap and basically we don't talk to each other at all. He's in the hometown and he asked my parents whether he can rent one of my room since it is walking distance to the uni; and without even asking for my permission, my parents agreed on behalf and only casually "inform" me... I was like, "WTF?"

Me: Hey, why nobody ask me about it first before agreeing on this?

Mom: Your cousin, just tolong him la~

Me: No, i'm used to stay alone...

Mom: What no?!? We already promised...

Me: You guys should ask me first....

Mom: He can help to take care of your house when you go travel and someone to feed your dogs

Me: But I...

Mom: And beside, aren't you feel boring everyday alone and not talk to anyone at all?

I know no matter what I said, I can never win this war... So now I'm thinking where to keep my things when my cousin move in... I'm very particular of people looking through my things without my permission; and I will never ever know what he will be doing for the whole afternoon when he came back from class and I'm working in my office... And the most inconvenient is... I cannot be naked anymore when I'm alone... FUCK !

Welcome to the family

My sister delivered a baby girl

She's so cute

She look so fragile and tiny

Really love her so much

Welcome to our family :)

RIP

Too many sad things happened

Too many relatives/friends/colleagues admitted to hospital

Due to cancer/stroke/injuries

Though i pray hard but God seems can't hear me well

A gym friend passed away one week ago due to liver cancer

My uncle passed away as well on last Friday due to lungs cancer

Life is short and unexpected

Live your life to the fullest

RIP

My Biggest Dream Comes True

I think u guys would have been wondering where am I for the last whole month... Do u still remember this? Well, my biggest dream finally come true in 2010~ I bought my own house !!!

This is a real big excitement for me~ r u serious? Yes, I'm damn fucking serious :) I got myself a house in the area which i used to study during my uni~ a double storey... My dream house :)

Though i really need to save a lot and no spending-like-nobody-business anymore, but i feel so happy. Everyday when i go back to my house after the whole day of work~ i will smile and say "hi, i'm home"... hehe... gila kah? yes, i'm :)

When i just bought the house, I have left no money for renovation. Have been thinking of taking a personal loan for the renovation, but finally decide not to. My parents came all the way from hometown, and together the 4 of us, including my sister, we paint the whole house and do all the necessary cleaning up. We also went around crazily buying furniture and all the things for the new house. Its really not cheap~ luckily my parents do sponsor me a bit.

Now I really need to sell my butt for some money. Any buyer? :P

Brotherhood Bond

12th May 2010 is the day Leu & Sunny bond as Brothers :)

Ever since we lost Lea few years ago, I always feel kinda lonely becoz i don't have someone to talk to~ Even though my sis is in Sunway, but u know la~ u can't tell everything to your sister right? So i met Sunny, same surname and same kampung with me. A very energetic, fun & positive thinker. He always there when i need someone to talk to; a shoulder to cry on & he will advice me on some problems~

Days by days, i felt that the brotherhood grow between us, so we have chose yesterday to bond our relationship. We have a casual dinner in Pavilion last night and best friends were invited - Darren K, Joe & Eric. We eat and chat and watch "Sat in the City" :) In terms of exchange gift, I chose "Sweet Alicia" from Swarovski for Sunny. Its to hope that he will always be as sweet as the ducky... haha~ lolz, I was hoping to buy another "Lucky Lee", but this is the budget i got now :P

And my bro got this Issey Miyake perfume for me :) Though I'm not sure whether this is for guy, woman or unisex~ but who cares? it really smells good and i love it :)

I wanted to post our dinner photos here, but in a second thought, better keep them unexposed~ lolz :P Yay~ i have a brother now :)

父母一生只有一個

媳婦說： 「 煮淡一點妳就嫌沒有味，現在煮鹹一點妳卻說咽不下，妳究竟想怎麼樣？」
母親一見兒子回來，二話不說便把飯菜往咀裡送。

她怒瞪他一眼。
他試了一口，馬上吐出來，兒子說：「 我不是說過了嗎，媽有病不能吃太鹹！」
「 那好！媽是你的，以後由你來煮！」
媳婦怒氣沖沖地回房。
兒子無奈地輕嘆一聲，然後對母親說：「 媽，別吃了，我去煮個麵給妳。」
「 仔，你是不是有話想跟媽說，是就說好了，別憋在心裡！
「 媽，公司下個月升我職，我會很忙，至於老婆，她說很想出來工作，所以 ....」
母親馬上意識到兒子的意思：「仔，不要送媽去老人院。」
聲音似乎在哀求。

兒子沉默片刻，他是在尋找更好的理由。
「媽，其實老人院並沒有甚麼不好，妳知道老婆一但工作，一定沒有時間好好服侍妳。老人院有吃有住有人服侍照顧，不是比在家裡好得多嗎？」
「可是，阿財叔他 .....」

洗了澡，草草吃了一碗速食麵，兒子便到書房去。他茫然地佇立於窗前，有些猶豫不決。
母親年輕便守寡，含辛茹苦將他撫養成人，供他出國讀書。
但她從不用年輕時的犧牲當作要脅他孝順的籌碼，反而是妻子以婚姻要脅他！
真的要讓母親住老人院嗎？
仔問自己，他有些不忍。

「 可以陪你下半世的人是你老婆，難道是你媽嗎？」
阿財叔的兒子總是這樣提醒他

「 你媽都這麼老了，好命的話可以活多幾年，為何不趁這幾年好好孝順她呢？樹欲靜而風不息，子欲養而親不在啊！」
親戚總是這樣勸他。

兒子不敢再想下去，深怕自己真的會改變初衷。
夕晚，太陽收斂起灼熱的金光，躲在山後憩息。
一間建在郊外山崗的一座貴族老人院。
是的，錢用得越多，兒子才心安理得。
當兒子領著母親步入大廳時，嶄新的電視機，42吋的螢幕正播放著一部喜劇，但觀眾一點笑聲也沒有。

幾個衣著一樣，髮型一樣的老嫗歪歪斜斜地坐在梳化上，神情呆滯而有一個老人在自言自語，有個正緩緩彎下腰，想去撿掉在地上的一塊餅乾吃。
兒子知道母親喜歡光亮，所以為她選了一間陽光充足的房間。
從窗口望出去，樹蔭下，一片芳草如茵。
幾名護士推著坐在輪椅的老者在夕陽下散步，四周悄然寂靜得令人心酸。
縱是夕陽無限好，畢竟已到了黃昏，他心中低低嘆息。

「 媽，我........我要走了！」
母親只能點頭。
他走時，母親頻頻揮手，她張著沒有牙的嘴，蒼白乾燥的咀唇在囁嚅著，一副欲語還休的樣子。
兒子這才注意到母親銀灰色的頭髮，深陷的眼窩以及打著細紋臉。
母親，真的老了！

他霍然記起一則兒時舊事。
那年他才6歲，母親有事回鄉，不便攜他同行，於是把他寄住在阿財叔家幾天。
母親臨走時，他驚恐地抱著母親的腿傷心大聲號哭道：「 媽媽不要丟下我！媽媽不要走！」
最後母親沒有丟下他。
他連忙離開房間，順手把門關上，不敢回頭，深恐那記憶像鬼魅似地追纏而來。
他回到家，妻子與岳母正瘋狂的把母親房裡的一切扔個不亦樂乎。
身高3呎的獎杯── 那是他小學作文比賽「我的母親」第1名的勝利品！
華英字典── 那是母親整個月省吃省用所買給他的第一份生日禮物！
還有母親臨睡前要擦的風濕油，沒有為她擦，帶去老人院又有甚麼意義呢？

「 夠了，別再扔了！」兒子怒吼道。
(這麼多垃圾，不把它扔掉，怎麼放得下我的東西﹞。岳母沒好氣地說。
「 就是嘛！你趕快把你媽那張爛床給抬出去，我明天要為我媽添張新的！」

一堆童年的照片展現在兒子眼前，那是母親帶他到動物園和遊樂園拍的照片。
「它們是我媽的財產，一樣也不能丟！」
「你這算甚態度？對我媽這麼大聲，我要你向我媽道歉！」
「我娶妳就要愛妳的母親，為甚麼妳嫁給我就不能愛我的母親？」

雨後的黑夜分外冷寂，街道蕭瑟，行人車輛格外稀少。
一輛寶馬在路上飛馳，頻頻闖紅燈，陷黃格，呼一聲又飛馳而過。
那輛轎車一路奔往山崗上的那間老人院，停車直奔上樓，推開母親臥房的門。
他幽靈似地站著，母親正撫摸著風濕痛的雙腿低泣。
她見到兒子手中正拿著那瓶風濕油，顯然感到安慰的說：「 媽忘了帶，幸好你拿來！」
他走到母親身邊，跪了下來。
「 很晚了，媽自己擦可以了，你明天還要上班，回去吧！」

他囁嚅片刻，終於忍不住啜泣道：「媽，對不起，請原諒我！我們回家去吧！」

∼∼後語∼∼

隨著自己愈長大，看著父母親臉龐從年輕變憔悴，頭髮從烏絲變白髮,動作從迅捷變緩慢，多心疼！
父母親總是將最好、最寶貴的留給我們，像蠟燭不停的燃燒自己，照亮孩子！
而我呢？有沒有騰出一個空間給我的父母，或者只是在當我需要停泊岸時，才會想起他們……
其實父母親要的真的不多，只是一句隨意的問候：爸、媽，你們今天好嗎？」
隨意買的宵夜，煮一頓再普通不過的晚餐，睡前幫他們盖盖被子，天冷幫他們添衣服、戴手套……
都能讓他們高興溫馨很久。

有時，我常在想：我希望我的子女以後如何對我。
那現在，我有沒有如此對待我的父母？
我相信，人是環環相扣的；
現在，你如何對待你的父母；
以後，你的子女就如何待你。

朋友，人世間最難報的就是父母恩，
願我們都能：以反哺之心奉敬父母，以恩之心孝順父母！

∼共勉之∼

生命不要求我們成為最好的，只要求我們作最大的努力！
老人安養院牆上發現的一篇文章
孩子！當你還很小的時候，我花了很多時間，教你慢慢用湯匙、用筷子吃東西。
教你繫鞋帶、扣扣子、溜滑梯、教你穿衣服、梳頭髮、擰鼻涕。
這些和你在一起的點點滴滴，是多麼的令我懷念不已。
所以，當我想不起來，接不上話時，請給我一點時間，等我一下，讓我再想一想……極可能最後連要說什麼，我也一併忘記。

孩子！你忘記我們練習了好幾百回，才學會的第一首娃娃歌嗎？
是否還記得每天總要我絞盡腦汁，去回答不知道你從哪裡冒出來的嗎？
所以，當我重覆又重覆說著老掉牙的故事，哼著我孩提時代的兒歌時，體諒我。
讓我繼續沉醉在這些回憶中吧！
切望你，也能陪著我閒話家常吧！
孩子，現在我常忘了扣扣子、繫鞋帶。
吃飯時，會弄髒衣服，梳頭髮時手還會不停的抖，不要催促我，要對我多一點耐心和溫柔，只要有你在一起，就會有很多的溫暖湧上心頭。

孩子！如今，我的腳站也站不穩，走也走不動。
所以，請你緊緊的握著我的手，陪著我，慢慢的。
就像當年一樣，我帶著你一步一步地走。
若為人子女也不懂得如何體諒他們，那他們便只能於痛苦中渡過餘生，黑暗中逝去....

家人是最重要的。
愛情可以重新再找尋，但父母一生卻只有一個，
要珍惜、珍重

Eyeing for A Bachelor

First of all, everybody please put your hands together for my sister. She just has her Master Graduation on last Sunday, i'm so proud of her :) Dad & Mum were here too, and of coz, I m there to support and shoot photo with them la~

I reached Nikko Hotel on 1:30pm and was looking for a car park then i spotted this hot hot hot guy came down from a car. Wow, i could not describe... maybe kevin cheng + utt ~ oh my... Then finally i found an empty space for my car, when i went for the lift, he was there :) He flashed me a smile and nodded, so damn polite. But after i do the same, a pretty pretty hot girl came and they hold hands together and i was like -.- '''

Ok, forgot about him. My sis once told me that those who study with her are all working adult :) So i was busying eyeing for some quality bachelor :P So i went to the hall and my sister was busying collecting her stuff for the photo session. . Then i stand aside and guard the flowers and bags... In within the wait, my sensor ping me and told me there's 2 same species around me. One is a graduate and another one is the photographer~ The graduate is kinda a "dai gao sui" and look at me with his hamsap eye~ eww... the photographer quite ok de~ fair skin and quite stylish overall :)

So when its our time for the photo session, the photographer served us and he passed me a name card after that. Aiya... too bad la~ i think i drop his name card somewhere and no where to be find :S So long for the bachelor hunt :P

The Year Without Beijing

My family is going to Beijing next month, and I'm not able to join them. Damn!!! Its because year end coming and due to lack of manpower in my department, i was told not to apply leave~ cry... Haiz, but i knw its really difficult for me to apply leave next month coz everybody will be so tense up and gonna have a lot of things to do, target to hit... Well, no beijing for me then~ :(

Don't cry for me Beijing China~ (Evita's theme song, lolz)

Arrggghhh, i dun understand why my parents choose to go at next month. All becoz of my sister, wanna experience the cold season at there lo. And they left their precious son alone in Malaysia... Cry~ wat to do? nvm la... i will go by myself next time :(

Anybody wanna go Beijing?

Appreciation for my 26 years

Just passed my birthday few days back and now i'm officially 27 years old, sad~ coz i'm older now...hahaha~ but i really appreciate for what i get of the previous 26 years...

Thank you Daddy

For all these while, i didn't really talk abt serious stuff with my daddy, coz it feel kinda weird. But i love my daddy deep inside my heart, i knw how he sacrifice for the family... i think a lot of daddy in almost all the families do so... My father always let us have the biggest piece of apple when he eat only the middle part of it; he always let us eat all the meat while he eat the bone part only; he always fetch me and my sister to school when all other kids need to wake up earlier for school bus; he always wake up in the early morning and buy us breakfast everyday~ I love you daddy

Thank you Mommy

My mom takes charge in the family, of coz she will discuss with my dad when big things come up. Since small, me and my sister knw tat we have to manja with our mom to get wat we want~ lolz... Although we are not rich, but my mom manage to arrange all the financial things and send me for piano, swimming, karate, tennis and drawing class... i always think she's a wonderwoman :) But in these few years, mum has not been so healthy. Been to hospital for a few times and i'm worry. And now daddy is not feeling well too, what can i do? i can only pray and hope all the things go well... Love you mom

Thank you My Little Sister

3 years younger than me which make her has the right to manja to her brother. I learn to be more responsible and independent becoz of my sister... I have to take care of her when she's having problems... I learn how to save (although not much) for her studies... We're the only 2 children that our parents have, we learn to love each other and appreciate what each other do for the others... :) Muaks~ big kisses to my sista~

Thank you My God

Not trying to be alleluyah or wat~ coz i'm buddhist... hahaha...ok ok, no offence... Although i think my life is difficult, but i appreciate coz i was born in Malaysia... Malaysia is much more better than Africa, and thanks for it... Difficulties and problems always appear non-stop these few years, but luckily everything has been solved... nothing really that serious and troublesome... thank you to my God, Kuanyinma :)

Thank you My Best Friends

Cedric, thanks for being my best-est friend ever since kindergarden. It has more than 20 years we have been this close. Although you r working in Singapore now, i really appreciate that you have make up calls to me and Micheal...
Michael, thanks for being my best friend too. We have knw each other since standard 5, and thanks for all the support and help everytime when i face problems :)
Ryan, thanks for being my clsoe friend. Its an honor to be your best man during your wedding... hopefully mine will be here soon :) and thanx for introducing Sammi into my life :)

Thank you My Ex

R, thanks for being the 1st one... i will always remember our sweet memories
A, although you have been the useless bump, but thanks for letting me knw the cruelness of this world
J, although you have gone back to Portugal... but the short period of 6 months have been wonderful for me... i get to experience all the things that i might not able to enjoy...
B, thank you for taking care of me although you knw i dont really love you
F, thank you for letting me knw that there's no true love at all
O, thank you for all the helps and support, wish u all the best :)
L, thank you for letting me knw that love needs money

Thank you My Blogger Fellas

Darren Kee, thanks for everything... we have been supporting and accompanying each other when we feel for it
Lesly, thanks for being my best friend now... at least i knw there's someone who's not fake in the blogging world
Twinkle, Michi & Ant, thanks for all the advises and knowledges which i appreciate very much
Danny, although i knw this gaga's lala before blogging, but i appreciate him for listening to me when i have problems
Koala, although he's not blogging anymore, but appreciate for all the help and things that he provided... a very good fren indeed :)
Jerry, SK, Evann, Tz, Ken & Tagnan, thax for al lthe comments and support...

After writing all these, i feel that i've been lucky :) And there should not be any self-pittiness anymore... shall strike for my best and hope to achieve better in my life... Have to really work hard and accept all the good suggestions and ideas...

As like i said:-
"Minds are like parachutes, they function best when you open"

Have a nice day everyone :)

Duty as a Brother

My sister gave me a ring last night, and we talked for more than 1 hour. We seldom talk so long on phone, i think maybe she's bored and wanted to talk to her big brother :) At first she was grumbling about how her part time stuff was troubling her... then she told me something which i thought i knew, but i didn't

My sister is quite hardworking, she still study her master while she's having a whole damn lot of work to do. And every month, after paying all her debts, she doesn't really have much left...which the situation is also same like mine~ lolz~ Well, i think most probably everyone in KL will have similar kind of problems. No matter how much you earn, you will never have enough to spend; coz higher salary = higher commitment = higher debts...

I felt kinda pity for my sister, coz her water boiler has spoiled few months ago and she doesn't have enough money to buy a new one... as a result, she has to bring her water from her company and drink... i mean wth~ i drink a lot of water everyday... how could she drink so less? And she has been eating bread as her dinner for a lot of nights becoz she doesn't have much money left...

When i heard of this, i feel pity for her... and as her brother, i feel that its my responsibility to take care of her and make sure she's not gonna suffer all these. But apparently, i dont earn much as well~ hehe... but i'm gonna buy her a water boiler and some biscuits and fruits for her during my lunch hour later... After my class tonight, i'm gonna bring her the things and some money too... hopefully she'll be fine :)

Oh My God !!!

There is this 20yo boy who just become my relatives recently... umm...not those "close" one, but kinda "far" in terms of our relationship... He ask for my email when he added me in facebook~ And today, i checked my email, and OH MY GOD !!!

He send me his half naked photo

CNY "Lou Sang" - Sang Sang Mang Mang

Finally got these photos from my cousin sister...

We went to Equatorial Hotel at 29th Jan to Lou Sang

Before that we took some photos....

This is me holding the menu, the menu is quite pretty right?

Leumas, My sister & My cousin sister

The 7 cucu...

Dunknw whether everyone has grown up in a different environment...We started to chat different topic with each other...The feeling is not the same as what we have used to been through when we're small...But i like this...it means we do experience a lot of good & bad thingz in our life which will make us grow...

Lou Sang Lou Sang

hope this year will be a Sang Sang Mang Mang year for all of us

Family photo

Been having a long holiday since 25th till 29th at my hometown

The whole family (my mother side) gather together to take our family photo

Its really not easy to gather everyone together, and there's 15 of us...

Especially since all of us have grown up and my cousin brother is working in New Zealand~

Well, this is how i dress up in tat day .. with my grand dad

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But finally i was forced to wear tie and coat~

look a bit old though

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Me & my dad

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My parents~

shit!!! my tummy is so big :p

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My lovely sister

At night, have dinner with the whole family --

with my granny

p/s: Really have to go on diet now ~ i look fat !!!!!

父亲节快乐

亲爱宝贝乖乖要入睡
我是你最温暖的安慰
爸爸轻轻守在你身边
你别怕黑夜

我的宝贝不要再流泪
你要学着努力不怕黑
未来你要自己去面对
生命中的夜

宝宝睡
好好的入睡
爸爸永远倍伴你身边
喜悦和伤悲
不要害怕面对
勇敢我宝贝