I let evils swallow me alive

I can't stand it no more... the vampire who once brought me to the eternal world smash my dream and killed me by squeezing off the last blood from my heart. And now, i walk into the dark, i walk into the hell full of evil spirits. I wear no shield, I bring no weapon, I let the evils swallow me alive...

They clawed my flesh, suck on my roots, laughing and enjoying the every inches of me. I teared. I have sank into a poverty full of filthy mud. More evils come but nobody see the tears flowing down from my cheek. I was once a fighter, I was once a general, I never cried till i become part of the vampire. And now, i am no one but a piece of shit~

I can't differentiate between my tears and the rain, nobody can, nobody will. I drag my vampire-less body out and try to run, run away from everyone, run away from despise stare. Till i see sunrise, i let the ray of light burn my flesh and hope that i will become ashes. Cleanse my filthy body and hurtful heart...

Hurt, i know i will see no vampire till the dawn again.

From the book of (Vampire 1123)