Letter to DS

Dear DS,

I don't know whether you're still reading my blog or not, i just feel like writing this for you. But if you missed this, then sorry la~ i will not write it physically for you.

The first day when we met, i feel my life becoming different. You're so caring and you feed me love spoon by spoon till i can't take it anymore. I will always remember the first date we went out, you actually brought me to a "shrimp-fishing-pond" which has been changed to a leisure place long time ago... At that time, i was about to make jokes of your sohai-ness but then when i look at your innocent expression, i just kept quiet. We started to date each others for dinner, and i was willing to skip my gym every time till Winnie call me an asshole for flying her airplanes!

2nd Nov 2009, the date i may remember now, but i hope its not forever. Coz its the date i become your bf, but you told me i'm just your bf, not lover. I thought this is how people like you who studied in US will say this, but no... i didn't interpret the meaning beneath it. I never really figure out that one may have many bf but only 1 lover

The first movie we watched in cinema is "2012", you told me you're expecting some love film but too bad, maybe our relationship might end up just like the disaster in the film. Prediction? Perhaps... Loving you is the period that i enjoy the most, but "thank you" is what i get.

You might not realized sometime you grumble a lot like an old nanny, but i enjoyed it. You enjoy farting in front of me, and we will laugh and you will get a punch from me. You like things to be in order and clean but you never wanted to wash your glasses and mugs. You likes your gold fish but you always try to find a way to get rid of my huang rong.

I thought you will be my last, but this is not gonna happen. Remember once when you get angry and i wait for you in front of your house 4 hours long? I never realized that i'm really doing this. It sounds silly but i did it. I never know that by asking where are you will make me look like a control freak. But u didn't realized you are also doing this too~

I make a big move when we were together, will i regret? I really don't know. I always hope that i have never make that move, but since i did, i will have to bear with it. Struggling to forgot about our love, you sure do a better job than me. My feeling was so tie up until recently. I know whatever it is, this has end and that's it.

Please let me be a bit selfish and live on my own life...

Love Dies
-n-

19 who am I - questions:

  kokhua

March 5, 2010 at 5:44 PM

Yours make my tears almost drops...
Everyone will get through it, you will recover it too...

Add oil!

  [SK]

March 5, 2010 at 5:59 PM

good, i hope with this letter, it really puts an end to it.. live yourself a new life, and you will get better one in days to come.. :)

  Clayden L.

March 5, 2010 at 6:11 PM

am so sorry to read about that
*hugs*

  Bravebear

March 5, 2010 at 7:00 PM

Filled with emotions... A really nice piece of writing.

  William

March 5, 2010 at 7:19 PM

You're a fighter. You'll definitely emerge stronger and more fabulous.

  rotiboy

March 5, 2010 at 7:50 PM

be strong!

  Sh@KiR@ CK

March 5, 2010 at 8:34 PM

Leu, do what you have to do,
to find closure if you have to,
do it for your peace of mind
and for the freedom to love freely again.

I know EXACTLY how you feel when
you are to be just one of the boys and
not that special. YOU deserve BETTER.

hugs
shakira

  垃圾魚-stacey

March 5, 2010 at 10:41 PM

everything is over....just straight away....dun turn back whatever u did it before...

  pikey

March 5, 2010 at 10:58 PM

I believe time will heal everything and every experience is what we learn in life... if love doesn't work out with DS, perhaps he can be also your friend or otherwise.. a choice you can make...

  Canny Har™

March 5, 2010 at 11:00 PM

wah. So touching. Chill up ok? Sammi's concert is coming! Let's get HIGH!

  nons

March 6, 2010 at 11:53 AM

时间不能让我们忘记过去种种,却能让我们淡化对此人事物的感觉
u will meet ur mrs.right soon, hehe, gambateh oh ~^^

  发白日梦^^

March 6, 2010 at 10:55 PM

if this ur decision,just keep going,& starting ur new life...

what i can do is giving u a console hug lo...haha..take care my fren!

  三太子

March 7, 2010 at 2:21 PM

Hello,這裡真是百看不厭的部落格 ........................................

  A-Keat

March 7, 2010 at 5:48 PM

Love always have no answer, but don give up, I am with you. Cheers and let's look forward.

  Little Crown Prince

March 7, 2010 at 6:45 PM

hugs

  天王之子

March 7, 2010 at 10:45 PM

加油咯
没有了可以在找过的

至少你还有朋友和家人啊
要相信他们也会
在你需要的时候给你打气哦

I'll be there, I'll be there
friends when you need me there
....:)

  3quarks

March 7, 2010 at 10:45 PM

*hugs*

  木子

March 8, 2010 at 1:29 PM

看完后,千言万语不知从何说起...
只希望你能释怀。只要真心爱过,就算结果不如人意,那也是幸福的!

朋友, 加油哦 ~~~

  Reszurrecdito M. d'Saintner

March 9, 2010 at 7:59 PM

Hope you grow stronger after the break up.