The Secret Hide Beneath

I'm tired, my body is signaling me. I'm tired, my mind is blurring off images. I'm tired, my heart is pounding hard. I'm tired, but i don't wanna sleep.

At some point, i feel a bit helpless.

I was swimming in the river few years ago, cramp on my leg, i scream for help, but no one was there. Luckily he was there, i don't remember, my memory kinda blur right now.

I was walking towards my ex's house few years ago, the alley was dark, i thought i heard some footstep behind me, but when i turned, no one there. I sped up, but two dark shadows pull me over. I was so slim those days, i fought, but i can't, they are too strong. I know who they are, they pulled down my pants and got what they want. I did not told anyone about this, went for HIV test, luckily i'm alright.

He told me i have to be strong, to take revenge. I started gain weight, i wanna be stronger. I cut off my long hair. I changed my look, the 2 devils can't recognize me anymore. I followed them. I knocked one of them down, he's still in hospital until now. I burned another's house, he's lucky to be alright.

My head spin, mum & dad told me i have a twin brother actually. But we lost him during high school in an accident. Why can't i remember anything? They told me i was in coma for one year after the accident, i forgot about my brother when i woke up. But why do you tell me now?

I believe he's still with me, he always does. Others say i love looking at mirror, it is because i saw him beside me everytime. He's right there, beside me, he never leaves me. Is it so i got 2 names? I let him used my body during night time to do whatever he wants.

Am i being emo? Nope, my brother is here. This is my real story. I love you brother.

L² = Leu + Lea